A LOST BATTLE

The sun, being the conqueror of the sky with all the beauty under its feet, isn’t spreading its full light today. It stands barren today. The sea has lost the words to claim its superiority; the waves are just strengthening forward but in seconds lose its earthly power. As if a ‘war’ has been declared. The shore is thirsty for the drops of water. The birds are waiting at the shore to get soaked in water and relive their lives. Their wings don’t seem to spread; if they do, they could haunt the enemy in the middle of the sea, liquefying it with blood. But does the sea cry over this monstrous incident? Even when there is no one to cheer for its beauty, it cheers when it stands in the middle of an uncertain reaction of the sand and coal.

There is a shrill sound of wood; someone has pushed it to let the smoke of unusual thoughts out. I am usually mesmerized by the beauty of this world; it feels as if the beauty has something to say. It wants to come out but fails to get the attention. I stand on my feet, there is no strength but I have to, it’s time to adventure fresh blood. The calf muscles somehow contracted but I stood up on the ground, when I walked, my feet felt the coldness of the floor. Even the tiles had a better sleep last night. ‘It’s the devil whose eyes never spread the freshness’. As I walked pass the mirror in my room, I felt as if someone was behind me, but I kept walking and left the room with the door open so that all my angels can go somewhere else. It won’t work here. My friends are cheering upstairs; they need food, as I have taught them every utterance. Their sounds early in the morning may make them villains in the ears of others but they are my heroes. People may have weird alarm tones but mine is always the whistle of my parrots, the cooing of my pigeons. Feeding my birds is my first task. I am not a good cook but I know how to provide vitamins to every creature. My pigeons can sense their freedom when they hear the floor beating up heavily, and when the fingers unlock the gaol, the birds are free. The pigeons are out; they sit on my shoulders and then are spread in every nook and corner. I have four of them and I have especial names for them. The number sort of reflects my inner world. When they walk it appears as if they are chanting the freedom song, their melody might be noise for someone but for me it is a language of peace. You never want to be out of that scene but you have to, it’s like a soldier being transferred to various deserts no matter how much he loves that particular atmosphere. I haven’t washed my eyes yet they see all the beauty which enters through my window. And then this freedom march of my army. I rushed downstairs, someone has called me. In between I have splashed water on my face and every drop made me feel as if my face was burning. I felt like “Meri Aawaz Main Awaz Kiss Ki Bolti Hai, Mere Geeton ko Geeton Ka Kinara Kaun De Ga” And then I decided to meet my companions with a pen and paper. The burning effect made me realize how a woman feels when some monster throws acid on their beauty.

The two-star man gets ready for his daily haunt. A jeep outside the house is waiting for him but Zunaira needs to get ready as well since Daddy never leaves without his Princes. I never get the chance to say goodbye to Dad as I was a humpty Dumpty child for whom the walls of school weren't open yet, so I was jealous of Zunaira, but she always kisses my face before leaving for school. Although I was awake, I compellingly kept my eyes closed when I sense her coming and after sharing the sweetness, she would say "ati you are good actor". And when she walks towards the door, I stand up on the bed like 'Mandela' and claim my medal that "Mother loves me more than Dad loves his star". Just then mother appears, her smile is that effective weapon which even 'Pope would claim that every spirit should protect'. The smile had already injured a soldier on their first meeting: Dad and Mom are two people, one soul now. She tries to get her Humpty dumpty off the bed, but I always enjoy getting extra love so I disturb her by not getting up, moving on the whole bed, hiding myself under the blanket. And when the blanket is forcefully taken off, I act like a "lost soldier". Then I get that extra love: mother hugs me, combs my hair and selects the best clothes for the day. Mother taught me 'one should always be ready for the occasion'. Her next task is to get her son some health with breakfast, after that she leaves me with the colors. I always paint my thoughts, although the drawings are not perfect, 'I am just five', how can they be but Zunaira always appreciated them.

In 1999 Pakistan’s great thinkers revolted, groups were created, the Corps Commander meeting resulted in outburst of ‘saving the youngest prisoner’. Pakistani Nation witnessed the power shift from moneymakers and feudal lords to the ‘sons of Ayub, Yahya and Zia’, with a promise that within few days the nation would be a heaven. It was just as ‘Yazid had justified his brutal murder of Hazrat Imam Hussain’.

It was raining and when it rains the whole Punjab is drenched like ‘a weak vessel’. I always love the rain. It is a bright Sunday, so today I have my partner Zunaira as well. I remember the cheerful voice of Zunaira when she sings. We heard the voice of an engine going to rest and sensed that Dad has arrived. We rushed towards the tubs but I slipped twice because of my humpty dumpty shape. With the marks of crime left on my knees, I bring guilt to Zunaira’s face when Dad scorns her. ‘Never leave any traces of redness on your body when you cross the borders’.

Dad looks a bit tensed as he announces that we have to pack our bags as the soil calls for its commander. Mom quickly packs our entire luggage, I felt bad for Zunaira who couldn’t start her college here. But feel happier that since it would be another world, Zunaira won’t start up all at once; she would spend more time with us. Thus, I would learn new tricks to defeat her and be the real revolutionary.

‘Great people to fly with’ is our new transport and we left our ‘Chaudry House’ for a new heaven. I couldn’t correctly utter when Dad announced that our new spot is Afghanistan so I always utter it by using long syllables.

Civil war has been erupted in Afghanistan since 1996; it is the conflict between two parties: the United Front and the Post Moderated Mullahs. The weapons captured the beautiful city of Kabul and installed their religious democracy with a supreme commander. The city within days came under brutal abuse of power and personal courts were installed. It resulted in amputations against people, within seconds people were brutally beaten-up. The freedom was being snatched and everything was ordered to be under veil. ‘Force can’t be stationed without the strength in the muscles and the strength was being fueled by the Islamic Republic of Pakistan, Iran and Saudi Arabia.

The two-star man, this time in his Khaki Shalwar Kameez, along with his family lands at the International Airport Kabul, where four people await their arrival. From the airport we have been taken to the luxurious Marriot hotel. Within days, a new home welcomes us. Dad has left his uniform and the stars in ‘Chaudry House’ and now he wears three-piece suits. I have noticed a change in the two-star man, now his fingers always hold a cigar and since he was not use to of smoking, he usually falls ill early. I had never seen him smoking on our soil, maybe he is assigned to a new task in which smoking is mandatory. ‘The soldiers always follow their master’s word’. I and Zunaira made new friends within days but the dialects differ. Only then I came to know that there are millions of dialects in the world. It’s not always English.

In an unusual Corps Commander Meeting in October 1998, the head of the army decided to provide financial and military support to the religious democracy in Afghanistan, Rana was upheld with the task along with Butt, Gul and Tarar. To strengthen the shoulders of Talibans, they sent over 28, 000 khaki soldiers to Afghanistan with Tarar as the master of their destinies. The soldiers were unaware of where they were heading to. It was a secret plan even the civilian government was unaware of it. The khaki people were stationed in different areas of Afghanistan, some even in madarsas so that United Front’s men do not recognize them. The force was sent to weaken United Front’s arms. But it all ended in ‘Kalashnikov culture’ in Pakistan. It appeared to be a great plan of the foreign powers ‘divide and rule’ as the Afghans were undefeatable, thus it became an essential part of the great plan to start a civil war in Afghanistan so that ‘the blood does not find its traces in foreign hands but in natives’ thirst’.

It is a bright sunny Sunday, the weather in ‘Chaudry house’ and Kabul is totally different, here the air seemed to be entrapped in a cage so when it bursts, it blows up with the soil, asking the soil to stand up for its freedom and show the real power. That day unexpected guests ring our doorbell; I stand up to open the door. By their physical appearance I could only guess they were ‘white people’, unaware of the terms like French, Russian or Americans. ‘It was generally thought after the post war 1857 period that a house was named traitor when it had white guests’. They inquire about the two-star man and gifted me with chocolates; sometimes I get so happy with a mere thing that I just sleep with it. Later that day, on waking up, I find my gifts are missing. I show my dissatisfaction but mother and Zunaira come forward and say “Papa won’t like that”. ‘It’s always better to play with your own toys’. While I am playing with the fax machine, suddenly Dad comes in to check on a fax; it was from Corps Commander Karachi. Soon afterwards I hear Dad getting angry with someone on the phone call. I have never seen Dad like that. I inquire about it from Mother and Zunaira but none seems to answer. That night we have been invited by the US embassy. I have to dress like Papa today, three-piece suit with a tie. And I don’t like the tie because I do not know how to wear it. Mother knot the tie to the collar, it feels like my neck has been locked up, the oxygen not passing through and I would die within seconds but just then Zunaira comes and loosen up the tie a bit so that my neck feels the freedom to move and I could breathe properly. That night I dance with a white woman, though she was an ‘Eiffel tower’ figure to me but I manage to jump on the table and stand there to dance. Several men have encircled Papa and they are basically talking about the political situation in Afghanistan.

A car stopped by our home, the situation of Afghanistan has gone worst and there was blood and blood in every lane. The phone rings, Papa was out; the two-star man has a meeting with a civilian member of the government today. On the phone is Governor of Sindh, an ex-cop who is a close friend of Dad, first Zunaira talked and then Mother. When Papa returns, he quarrels with mother, the real plan was out now. This is not our land or any battlefield. ‘A soldier should be sent to a battlefield where he shows his real strength not to a barren place where he has no gain but blood’.

In the 1998 Corps Meeting, it was decided that along with Rana, a khaki soldier should be sent as well whose identity won’t be revealed and the best way to do it was to send the soldier with his family. ‘A soldier fights the enemy not his family’. That two-star man had been chosen for this act along with a female social worker, fifteen year old girl and a six year old boy. The best way to fit in a strange place was to enroll a new identity to these people and the cigar phenomena was evolved. The mission was to negotiate with the Afghan people, religious democrats and United Front bodies. Financial Aid and their plans was the key of this non-state actor.

February 1999, the Taliban and United Front’s forces clashes spread in every nook and corner. Masood’s people came to know of the shoulders of religious democracy. Masood went to US embassy and revealed the plan, the Americans found it the right time to spark the fire for the civil war and start the thirst for one’s blood. In that meeting Masood called the Prime minister’s house in Islamabad which was unaware of the plan. Foreign Minister was sent to negotiate with United Front’s leader and Supreme Commander. Meanwhile the Corps Commander Karachi and the Governor became active for a safe exist of the two-star man because now his identity had been leaked out, that he was patrolling the religious democracy. But whether he was or not remains a question in the files of GHQ.

            Several shots of fire are heard and Dad has been outside after the quarrel with mother, within seconds all rush towards the main entrance, meanwhile I contact the Pakistan Embassy, but the Afghan national anthem has already burst out This land will shine forever, like the sun in the blue sky, in the chest of Asia ‘but today traces of blood have been spread on the sky, there is a body lying on the globe of Asia’. Zunaira cries out loud that evils have killed our father. But before I can even drop the phone, they pick mother and sister as well with them. And I only saw those culprits’ half-covered faces with a handkerchief (rumal) and their eyes filled with hatred.

The tears do not seem to come out at once; a burning process starts as if a coal is burning in my chest and sparks a fire in the whole body. I stop writing and try to have some food, the kitchen welcomes me and I eat what my neighbors have offered me. One day a girl asked me,

‘Do you eat Chinese?’

‘No.’

She was shocked to hear my answer that I have never tasted it, may be my neighbors are from Iran who can’t cook it. My next task is to read something, this time it is Faiz who won my pleasure. He entertains me with utmost enjoyment. It is night now, I have to sleep but my eyes do not seem to close, I keep looking through my window and think ‘does the water ever sleeps? It keeps roaring all the night although how alone it is.’ They say that the devils never sleep but it’s the angels whose eyes don’t close.

A newspaper headline stated on 19^th February, 1999 that “The two women which were kidnapped were brutally killed. Pakistani Embassy receives their bodies’. Foreign Minister in Pakistan issued a press release that the three bodies recently found in Afghanistan belong to Pakistan. A detailed story was published in the leading newspapers of Afghanistan that ‘Supreme Commander’s right hand killed by United Front’s men’. The International media reported that in February 1999, ISI’s boy made a secret save passage for the Al-Qaeda leader. While the corners of GHQ were worried about the lost genetic print of the two-star soldier: ‘the humpty dumpty boy’ who was missing.

Within thirty minutes, the Afghan police arrive, handicap the humpty dumpty boy and take the body of the two-star man in an ambulance. I am in great shock, meanwhile the local police inquires about me. I know nothing of what is my identity; I only utter the word Pakistan. And they label my father a spy. Only years later I come to know what actually spy means, initially I believed it was a term used for the two-star ranks in army. ‘In an age where children are given books and toys, I was locked up in gaol’ being the youngest prisoner. Only later on Mullah’s words his Jihadi soldier made my secret release: I was transported to Daruntal then to Jalalabad and later crossing the Torkham border reached Khyber Agency, to my soil Pakistan with H. Mehsood. ‘In an age when children should go to school, I was crossing borders’. Here I am informed that my mother and Zunaira were also killed. And when I reach the ‘Chaudry House’, I see three bodies awaiting me. Usmani hugs me and takes me to the ground where Guard of Honor is being presented to the two-star man. Several soldiers standing in a row fire black cartridges thrice in the air; Pakistani flag is wrapped over the coffin. And everyone salutes the dead man. Within seconds I bury three bodies with my little hands. ‘In an age where children hold the fingers of their father and mother, I was burying them’.

Corps Commander Karachi in a meeting revealed that my father was assigned to a special mission: to assist and lead the troops sent in Afghanistan. Shah’s men came to know of it and in order to take revenge; they killed my father, mother and Zunaira. Foreign Minister was informed by the US Embassy but he didn’t take any safety measures. In a secret meeting, years later, Usmani told me the army was equally aware that their plan had leaked out but in order to put it behind the bars, they couldn’t just help at the right moment. But he mentioned the murder of these three people was put up as the first charge, in favor of imposing martial law, in the charge sheet against the Democratic Government. ‘It’s difficult to save a soldier but it’s easy to use his name for personal gains, for power’. He mentioned ‘the humpty dumpty boy’s identity’ will always be secret as the GHQ record states that the boy died in goal. It was Usmani and a few others who managed to save the boy. 

The Taliban Government ended in 2001 and the two-star man was awarded ‘Hilal-e-Imtiaz’.

            But my eyes just do not close. ‘Iqbal’ comes in my mind when I remember my Dad, the two-star man “he watered the dry garden of freedom with the surging wave of his blood”. Zunaira’s voice calls upon me, I remember seeing her body, her bones broken. And how can I forget my mother who could have made me a Chinese dish today. At five, the eyes finally seemed to close. ‘Soldiers should be stationed at borders, battlefields; they are not non-state actors’. And when the army uses their soldiers as non-state actors, they lose wars. When they put their fingers in other’s soil, their soil is penetrated by the prints of Punjabi Taliban. ‘A house is nothing without its superior warrior’. Today I can feed my heroes, my birds but I can never feed them like a mother because the love has not been there for years now. But I have new family members which I meet every day in the words of Faiz:

Wo dar khula mere gamkade ka,
Wo aa gaye mery milne waale,
Wo aa gai sham apni rahon me farsh-e-afsurdgi bichhane,
Wo aa gayi raat chaand taaron ko apni azurdgi sunane,
Wo subah aayi damakte nashtar se yaad ke zakhm ko manane,
Wo dopahar aayi aasteen me, chhupae sholon ke taaziyane
Ye aaye sab mere milne wale,
Ke jin se din raat wasta hai,
Tou kon kab aya kab gaya hai?
Nigha-o-dil ko khabar kahan hai
Khayal soo-e-watan rawaan hai
Samandaro ki ayyal thame...
Hazar wehm-o-gumaan sambhale
Kai tarah ke sawaal thhaamey-Mere milnay walay  

The sun has risen and I have a very important meeting today, 'they say those who do not sleep at night serve the mankind better'. I should rather take this tag then. I have worn my dress for the occasion, this time the tie is not stopping my breath. And I am ready to go in the battlefield, to defeat the devil.

FEAR OF BEING ALONE!

The dark light of this night is welcoming a stranger on a soil ruled single handedly by a king for years. He can feel someone’s footsteps marching towards his soil. As if there is a soldier who is coming to battle with him. The king would not give his land, this is his place and he has worn the crown for years now, no one can steal it. “Weapons can never kill him until he has his sharp teeth” he decided not to close his eyes or else he will find traces of blood on his skin. To conceal his presence he had decided to hide himself behind his tall green friends, and as the soldier steps ahead, he will catch him and let the blood flow out from his veins. My fellow neighbors could be happy today because I will bring them happiness. But I suspect and wonder will this bring happiness to them as no one will come to see my act. I should kill these ideas for now and figure out how to overcome the approaching danger. Suddenly I sensed that he has stopped and the chewing sound suggests that he is hungry and he is overcoming his hunger. I cannot attack someone whose stomach was empty. Killing him at this time would suggest that I am killing an innocent soul who is weak and feeble.  

He is not a soldier anymore to me; he is empty handed as if his bravery and fervor has been looted on the way. With the help of my green friends I marched close to him. He has observed my movement because his stomach is full now. He might need the liquid now. Just in my neighborhood they need a bottle of coke after eating. He looks here and there as if checking any danger nearby but the danger was already there but he lied down and fell asleep. He is sleeping on my soil, that’s the perfect time to kill him, as backstabbing is common these days. I want no stranger on my land but is it the right time to kill him now, from whom can I consult, these twinkling stars but they are shining pretty well even they would mind his presence near them or may be my green friends but consulting them would be introducing them to a new friend. Everyone needs a friend even the butterflies gives their true colors when they are in groups. The way he slept I think he was roaming here and there to find a safe place but is this safe heaven? It’s the king’s land its hell for him, hasn’t he dug his own grave. I can make my friends happy show them my skills but attacking him now would sound unjustified that would be like killing someone with a weapon when he can be undo by a stone. Let him sleep for now and the street fight will begin tomorrow in the bright day light. For now I need to protect him so that no one else put his eyes on him. My eyes should be focused on him; today I have to act like an owl to be a tiger tomorrow. But if I sleep I am appealing to you O! My mighty green friends to protect him, today he is our guest that will be haunted tomorrow. I plead to you too oh the white light spreading circle; shade your light on him so that he feels no danger at least tonight.

The arrival of the morning is announced by themelodious voices of the sparrows and hens. My eyes turn wide open ready to face the enemy in this atmosphere. But my partner of last night hasn’t woken up yet, though the flies and bees are disturbing him by clipping to his skin. Suddenly he opened an eye and his eyes met mine. He at once stood up in a shock as a soldier who has lost the battle and is now feeling endanger. I made a huge sound perhaps that shocked my green friends as well. “Sometimes even powerful voices have no impact”. My guest’ssafe night is over; it’s time for the battle. But he showed no signs of bravery, his eyes blinking as if he has stepped in on the wrong soil. His search for a safer place has resulted in bombing arena, but he turned his back and walked away, no quarrel why? Have I committed a mistake by allowing him to stay alive all night? I quickly marched towards him, trying to block his way provoking him for a fight but he turned away every time he saw my red blooded eyes. “To kill him at this junction will be like attacking an ongoing train that has realized that it has accidently landed on the enemy’s soil”

The day passed as it usually does but I was thinking about him. Suddenly in these thoughts I fell asleep. The morning light was introduced to me by the disturbing flies. I wanted to eat them but it will just increase my enemies’ list. “Silence is the best medicine for curing someone’s harsh attitude”. Then I stood up and what I saw was like a bolt from the blue my guest of yesterday was sitting on a piece of wood just across me. Has my land being snatched away from me? No no this can’t happen. I moved towards him he seems to be ready for the street fight today so let’s began it then. We both made loud roaring sounds. This disturbed our neighbors and they entered the soil thrice our number. They were six and now the king was surrounded by seven enemies. But within seconds my one night guest ran away and disappeared. Now it’s a six to one fight. They attacked me from all sides. But suddenly my guest returned and attacked them and his bravery forced the new guests to leave the soil and vanish into the thon air. He then sat on the wood staring at me as the new guests have left me wounded. I can sense that in a few minutes I will join up the stars tonight. He marched towards me I was crumbling on the ground; my eyes have turned bloodless now. I was sure of my painful death but my guest did the opposite he touched my skin where there were wounds as if he was treating me. Every time he touched I went one step backwards his teeth’s were weapons enough to haunt me. He moved here and there and then went away. I fell asleep and when my bloodless eyes opened I found food in front of me, I quickly ate it as if it was a gift from God. But then I saw my guest eating the same kind of food, so my guest has brought it for me but why??? This was the only question looming in my head. Everyone should have a guest like him so that one won’t need to dirty his hands ever again.

I was feeling well now but my guest has disappeared. I waited for him till night but he didn’t appear. I was thinking what if my neighbors attack me in this period of time and so rightly they did came back once again. It was midnight and so dark that I couldn’t even count their exact number. But suddenly my ears were cherished by a familiar voice and that made me feel that the enemies would ran away at once. My old guest comes closer to me touched my skin with a gentle touch and placed the food, I ate it with relish and fell asleep. I knew I wasn’t alone someone was there to protect me, my guest, my first enemy and perhaps the future king of this land. Days passed and the same schedule was repeated. The future king came at night like an angel and disappears in the day light therefore I decided to follow him to know where he spent his days. One day I followed him and he stopped at a circled ground where two brave souls were fighting and he jumped into the fight. The fight continued for hours and finally the future king won it, then what prize did he get? Food and with that he marched towards my arena. It was a real fight and what I was planning was imaginary and the truth was revealed I wasn’t the stronger one. That night I realized he won’t steal my land and the first night he might have come here in search of food. This usual practice made us friends, I was alone in this big arena and finally I found a friend. And the days passed when he slept I protect him and when I slept he returned the favor. So we become partner’s two kings of the same arena Hasoly and Mamsie.

So the two kings can only survive and live together if they protect each other and work for mutual benefit. If they won’t they will be killed. One day the fight took a drastic mood when Mamsie got hurt in between the fight. Although Mamsie didn’t fight like he usually use to and let Hasoly grab the food. Hasoly fought like a criminal and harmed Mamsie, he let Hasoly hurt him because Mamsie couldn’t harm his friend. “Sometimes even the idea of harming your dear friend makes your inner soul die” Mamsie went away forever and is yet to return. Hasoley claim that he wasn’t fighting for himself but for the food, so that Mamsie has the best deal. But in fulfilling that wish his claim of being the superior king gunned over his nerves and made him act childlike and the result is loneliness.  I am again alone in this huge jungle now waiting for Mamsie to return. My biggest trouble at present is not that but will my neighbors allow me to live that long but ahead of all this the idea of being alone now in this big jungle is killing me. My old friends the green trees are pissed off by me because I ignored them for Mamsie.

“Sometimes there is little light in the dark shadows but one’s attitude never sees that small light which is entering through the hole can have the ability to make them whole”

(Hasoly is the king of the jungle who protects it from Mamsie the guest and the real king).

(Hasoly is the king of the jungle who protects it from Mamsie the guest and the real king).

A Perfect Marriage "Ayesha's Marriage"

“Haan toh aapki marzi” (As u wish) the words appeared on my mobile screen on 16^th august as if saying that why always you wanted to be behind the bars? I was talking with the bride of tomorrow and as always I want my point to won the battle. But the words somehow struck my brain and I started thinking what to do, looked at the sky and it appeared as if a thunder was coming. A scintillating girl was inviting me and I was snatching away the music from her grand moment. I exactly don’t know the feeling why I don’t want to go may be just because my other friend wasn't coming, showing some unity which I guess doesn't exit. So the awkward feeling was somehow being crushed up by her words as if she had throne stones on my head. These made me awaken from the deep thoughts, also my friend helped me in curing this awkwardness and I decided to go and hail a flower on her among several other roses. Now I had to go to Munawar Chrowangi but the question that punched me again and again was that where this place is in Karachi?  It sounds bit sore that a boy doesn't know the streets of Karachi. But how can I, I don’t know who this Munawar is and what exceptional thing he did that a street is named after him. Bull shit on my face I am a history student and I am barely aware of this Munawar and the streets. While all these thoughts were mingling in my mind a second thought appeared in my mind that how will I go there as I always knock the wrong door. What to do now, Google earth can help me as it do to the Pirates. But all of a sudden I remembered that Ayesha had done the artistic work behind my notebook. Trust me I would have never find that place if the map wasn't drawn on a piece of paper. She had drawn it in the perfect manner it was share lightness to a dark street. The map shows direction from Nipa to the ultimate distinction.  I would love to show the map again to her in future as every word she had written was crystal clear compare to her earlier writing in my Poetry notes. So that day she had done a better job by showing her real skills. The map runs smoothly from Samama to continental bakery and from the last spot a turn was to be taken, which will open the way to the main lawn. Every minute detail she had provided me from the CNG station to the wide range of Shadi lawns. The final spot was the Paradise lawn. Now I have to wear a perfect kurta for the occasion and struck between black and green. Worn both of them but at last selected the green one.


Now the time had come, I got ready and went to dig this place out. Samama is a known place to me so I reached their quiet easily. Meanwhile in the rickshaw I was trying to divert someone’s mind and entertain someone with my comics as she wasn't able to make it there. I had literally turned into a camera when I said to her that you can see the wedding through my eyes but I was thinking would I be able to reach the place or not. But I had the images one could have so I was satisfied that I would reach their somehow. And my believe was confirmed by the shining lights of the lawns but there were so many lawns I wonder how many people get married in one day. The place was bit scary in between despite the fact that on the other side of the road there were lawns but the place was like in the middle of a sea where one finds no traces of the shore. Off course the shore is the paradise lawn and from that place I developed an idea that this Munawar must be killed here and on his first death anniversary a street was named after him. Don’t blame me for developing such an idea actually this is what most history students do while describing a place. It was like entering a dead street. Finally I find the lawn it was at a few minutes distance from the main chowrangi. For seconds I thought I am in the wrong lane but I trusted my friend’s intelligence and hence find the place. Finally I entered the hall but I was stunt as I have come too early in the event. I fell like Hassan for once you were not coming and now you have come so early that few people are in the hall. But then the green signal came as Ayesha’s sister Sheza came towards me and asked me to sit and then uttered perhaps the most awkward script that Ayesha is coming as if I had come to her home and asking where she is. I don’t know what she might have thought on my rising so early was she excited or I but somehow she uttered the concrete words. Perfect I have come in her wedding and my eyes reflected as if I was searching her. After some time people started to come. One of the difficult tasks for me in this wedding was to snatch pictures merely for my missing friend. In this unknown paradise I was to snap pictures. But someone had expectation from me so I had to do the job anyhow. Meanwhile Ayesha came and trust my eyes she was looking damn pretty in her wedding dress with an everlasting smile on her face; her eyes were shining as she was to meet the star which has the power of shining. Paradise lawn’s beauty was doubled by her presence. But then she entered the room another hard task for me was to enter the room and meet her. Gathered a lot of strength and entered the room and once I was in I wasn't coming out. In fact at one time I was stuck between all the ladies and need to be rescued, and the recue job was upheld by ayesha's friend. She was happy to see me and regretted her words but I guess that brought me there so they were actually quite good to motivate me. I was surrounded by a bunch of women’s in that room and somehow I manage to get out from there before that her nikkah was performed, her elder sister was crying while her mother was so happy and at last she uttered the words which appear to be final stamp for the two stars meeting that day. Outside the room I was again surrounded by girls but this time the girls were not new to me Saira, Shahida Nazish and Nida. Honestly I enjoyed the company of Saira as I am not good with strangers but when you need company God always make sure that a soft and smiling voice is beside you so that one doesn't get bored.

Then the food was served and I don’t want myself to be stuck between the ladies so I asked Shahida to bring the food. Alas the food came but it wasn't brought by Shahida but another S the green signal ayesha’s sister. So she found me again in an awkward position. Hence I concluded that her thoughts for me will always be in a comic way,  on that she asked do you want sweet and I was first looking at her face some awkward feeling Hassan stop it and said no to her . So slowly I found the place amazing as strangers were giving me company, bringing food for me. Then Ayesha’s mother came she was so sweet just like butter, I meet her twice before and became fan of her cooking. I said Assalam u Alaikum she greeted me too. I must say the ladies have a die heart smile from Ayesha’s younger sister as it appeared on the dark hour for me and then her mother missed her elder sister’s. Aunty asked me how am I and when she was going she stretched her hand and I was like aunty no  no please it will spoil your hands plus my hairs too as they were gelled but that hand finally came on my head and that touch give an enormous pleasure, kindness and love which at times I needed the most.Indeed that touch I miss even today. Mothers are always good. Then I clicked the pictures of  Ayesha’s family, it must be awkward that I didn't meet the other star Ayesha’s husband someday I will perhaps.

Finally the occasion came to an end with the lights shut off but the brightness of the two newly wedded stars was enough to enlighten the hall. I had to go now said good bye to Ayesha, her father and mother. I had to thank her sister for the food and all. I think I did but I guess she didn't hear it. But here I can say it Thank You girl. Finally I came out and Saira’s father give me a

lift and the night finally got over with god’s blessing. A perfect night came to an end, I will always remember this night.  I must someday say thanks to Ayesha for inviting me, Saira for the company, Ayesha’s sister for the wonderful treatment. At last her mother for spreading her kind blessings on me. It was perhaps a perfect match of the two stars which I thanked Ayesha for allowing me to saw it.

Silence

Sometimes prolonged silence give birth to action. Anyone who is silent for the time being doesn’t mean he is weak. Perhaps it is said that one’s mind works faster in a calm environment but whether for right act or wrong is yet to be decided. The effects may sometimes change one’s life. The story of Moiz is a reflection of the above words. His life took a turn and brought roars of cry and sheds of blood.

Moiz lived in a small house along with his parents and two sisters. He had great interest in studies Despite he never went to school but still he had great knowledge as he was always found of reading something.He was a shopkeeper and works so that his family has a better earning. One day the local mafia asked him for some exhortation money which he refused to give. They warned him thrice but he ignores them. So they thought to teach him a lesson. When his shop was closed they broke the locks and smashed everything in the shop. Moiz came to know about it but he avoided taking any sort of action against them. Everyone forced him that he should report in the police station but he didn’t. He said that they are too powerful and the Police Station is just like a second home for them.

Moiz remained silent as his family advised him to reestablish his shop and be calm. Taking their advice he did the same but perhaps the mafia didn’t like it. Few days later a chit was left at his shop and a number was written on it with a tag that “do call on it” otherwise face the consequences. He did it accordingly. On the phone they threaten him that we have heard that you are earning a lot of money. If you would give half of it to us monthly it would be in your betterment if not then you do have a family. Moiz’s fear was reflected soon after the phone was put down. He wasn’t able to sleep for few days. He thought of giving some amount but then again realized the needs of his family. He refused to give them the amount and remained silent. They did threaten him by firing near his shop but it was all normal for him as it is for all of us these days. The glasses in his shop were broken due to these fire crackers but he avoided the situation. His father asked him that he should report against them but he didn’t.

Moiz’s silence and no reaction on all these activities made the mafia frustrated. Now they tried the other way they fired at his home. His family was frightened by all this. So they decided to report against them but Moiz didn’t agree with them. So he didn’t go with his father. The Police rejected to file the FIR as the owner of the shop Moiz was saying nothing on the matter. The mafia now decided to take revenge and they felt that if they didn’t do anything their influence over the area would be affected. One day they made a drastic plan they entered Moiz’s house and did the evil thing. They raped Moiz’s sisters. Moiz heard the news that the mafia members were seen approaching towards his house .So he at once rushed towards the house but it was too late. Now he can only hear the roars of her sisters crying. Moiz was helpless his silence paid him in the negative way. Moiz was shocked and the roars didn’t let him sleep for nights. So he decided to report against them but he was aware of the fact that they would be out of their second home easily. He remained silent for some time. But her sister’s action changed his motives. They committed suicide. This made Moiz sadder and he was blaming himself for all this. He thought if he would have reported against them and shouldn’t have remained silent, things would have been different.

Moiz had made up his mind. A plan had been made to overcome all the silence and a revenge for her sister’s death. He killed the mafia members one by one. Four of them were dead and perhaps a revenge for Moiz was taken now. But this act changed his life and from a shopkeeper he became a criminal. If Moiz had reported in the Police Station against them, the scenario would have been different and his life wouldn’t have changed that much. So don’t be silent against the evil acts and don’t fear Allah is always with you. Be brave and bold in taking such decisions as these can change your life as they did of Moiz.

A SCENE FROM THE EMERGENCY

It was a bright and sunny day when all my cousins had gathered at my home. We decided to play cricket but we didn’t find it convenient to play in the garden so we went out and started to play along the road side few others and my area friends also joined us. It was a busy street and the vehicles were moving from there. My father gave us the precautionary measures that play safely and we all at once said yes we all but we never took them seriously and we were so much involved in the game that we were anxious to get each other out as quick as possible but who would have imagined that one of us will be out forever.

The vehicles were moving like it was a racing track one of the vehicle had almost hit my cousin but he was safe at last but another corolla car came from the other direction and hit one of my friends and in seconds one of them was on the road. At once we marched towards him and pick him up but the left side of his head was bleeding. We quickly get him in the car and rushed towards the hospital as we want to reach the hospital as soon as possible to provide him first aid. 

In a few minutes we reached a hospital nearby my home and he was shifted to the emergency room. Meanwhile his parents arrived as well and we had completed all the procedures of admitting him to the hospital. After the initial treatment the doctor came out of the emergency room and he informed us that his head is found to be tilted towards the left side it was due to his head had struck the ground and at first we want to take some x-rays of the spine then we will proceed further. We entered the emergency room and helped our friend to try to get on the stature so that he can go to the x-ray room we found that the his head was still bleeding and some traces of it had came on my shirt as well after the x-rays has been taken we shifted him to the emergency room and waited for the x-rays after an hour we went to the Radiology department to pick his x-rays and we brought the x-rays along with a report to the concerned doctor.

 The Doctor reported that his head has permanently tilted towards the left side and in order to cure it we need to do a surgery after permission from his family the surgery was to be performed but at night .We all went to the emergency room and sat beside our friend the time passed slowly and finally the time had come when his surgery was to perform and he was shifted to the ICU and we all were waiting outside the room. The surgery lasted for hours and at the mid night hour the Doctor arrived and said we have conducted the surgery successfully but the patient is under observation and all depends upon his movement and how he responds. Thereafter we arrived in the room and we saw our friend was wearing an oxygen mask and a glucose bottle was also hanged his bed around and there was a ventilator and oxygen cylinder as well in the room but in a few minutes we saw in the monitor that his pulse rate was decreasing and immediately we call the doctor. The doctor gave him an injection but the pulse rate was never increasing and the doctor told us that he had gone in shock and in a few minutes we observed that his pulse rate finally went down, the doctor tried to increase his pulse rate by giving him shock therapy but it was too late to be given and he had passed away.

The Doctor sadly informed us that he is no more now. The news of his death was a bolt from blue for all of us and his family. We all had tears in our eyes as he was a spiritual boy and his family sat beside him as he was to wake up but he wasn’t. I wish we hadn’t played cricket that day on the road but when destiny had decided your fate nothing can be done in this case as you cannot fight against your own destiny.

“A bullet written for you by destiny would come to you and kill you no matter how many walls you built around yourself”  

A DEATH IN THE PRISON!!

Crime has no restrictions and it is committed from local areas to high security areas. You often would have heard of deliberate killings at streets, hotels, airports and public gathering places but never at a police station of two rivals though often criminals are killed by police officers at Police station but never for a murder plan would the venue be Police Station. But one day it was reported that the renowned mafia Don committed the most daring operation in the history of crime near Chakiwara Police Station beside whom are several resident building situated as well.    

It was reported that Shakeel and Kalo the two mafia kings of their areas grew anxious of each other’s death and they had became enemy of each other though they both belong to the same gang but a conflict among them created walls between both of them as Kalo’s eyes fell upon Shakeel’s sister Zakia and Kalo use to disturb Zakia whenever he find her alone at the house. Shakeel came to know of this and he warned Kalo but it was too late and his eyes were set on Zakia and one day he kidnapped her and when Zakia refused to marry him, he forcefully killed her in anger. Shakeel came to know of this news and he was shock to hear this news before he could take a revenge Kalo was arrested as he handed over himself to police in search of a better place. Kalo was hated by his masters too because of his suspicious activities so his supari [betal nut] was offered and Shakeel was the first to make an attempt for it.
Kalo was locked up in the Chakiwara Police Station and informers of Shakeel kept him informing about the situation of Police Station. One night when there were not more than 3 police officers at the station Shakeel planned to give the last breath to the evil. Shakeel arrived in a taxi at the Police Station at the midnight hour along with two men who were to guard him during the crime. They first tried to convince the guard Policemen that they wanted to deliver the liquor to Kalo but he at once refused then they had no more option then to throw grenades at the gate and thus they enter the lock up area and Shakeel rushed towards the lockup where Kalo was detained he had a hammer in his hand with whom he brooked the lockup kalo thought that someone from his gang has come to break him out of the station but as he saw Shakeel’s face he was scared and his scariness was reduced to pain when Shakeel fired three shots that hit Kalo’s chest and he was dead before he was to hit the ground but Shakeel could not allow Kalo to such a quick painless death he took the hammer again and began to attack Kalo’s head till his skull turned to pulp. All that remained of Kalo’s head was a mash of brain mixed with bits of bone splattered across the cold stone floor of the cell after getting satisfied of getting avenged Shakeel he ran away from the Police Station.  Soon the Police officers arrived at the scene and they all were shocked and rendered motionless. The headcounstable who was present there reported that each time Shakeel raised the hammer he cried out loud and say loudly that why did you do it you were my friend and every time hit him hard. It seemed as though each blow was to ensure that kalo learnt a lesson he would never forget though that the man was long gone beyond to feel any pain.Next morning there was a huge uproar in the area as who would have imagined a convict person would be murdered so brutally inside a prison. For days the residents didn’t allowed their children to go out of the area and there was constant fear among themselves and among the Police officials as well as the murderer was still roaming on the streets but on Shakeel’s side he was running for his life .The gang members were now not ready to be associated with him as the Police was after him as it had put a question mark upon them as well.





However Shakeel was arrested and he narrated the entire story during police investigation and from where he tried to run away and was shoot dead by the encounter specialist. The Police declared it an incident and launched an FIR and several charges of exhortation, kidnappings and killings were entitled as the Police once in a blue moon found a criminal upon whom all the charges are framed. Kalo’s death put a question mark upon the Police officers but it was removed when three stars were put on the shoulders of the officer who encountered Shakeel. Newspapers and residents of the area of Chakiawara reported it to be the most daring operation one would have ever witnessed of in the history of mafia and crime

    

NOVEL “THE OLD MEN AND THE SEA” Review from Hassan’s eye

Earnest Hemingway in this novel has explained man’s constant struggle against the forces of nature and his will power to accomplish his mission but one of the tragic extract which has not been viewed lies in the title “The Old man” which refers to old age or aging. Though Earnest himself has not tried to highlight this aspect but surely the reader may point out at it and feel loneliness of the old men who has no one with him and his sadness is revealed when he was in the deep sea trying to accomplish his mission of catching a big fish after eighty four days of bad luck and there the old men realized how lonely he is and began to narrate his loneliness with all those people who are left alone in their old age. The firm grip to his sadness and his feeling is more clearly pointed out when he wishes more than 8 times that I wish “The boy was here” the boy was his partner who normally goes with him but now he was with the lucky skiff. The old man remembers the boy when he need support, salt and most often care and this becomes crystal clear when he made non-human beings his friends the birds, the ducks, flying fish and the big fish the one which he was going to harm.

One can feel that the old man was bit sarcastic as he was talking to himself, with his hands, sometimes with the bird and often with the big fish but it was a trick to overcome his loneliness or may be his belief that someone was always listening to him but there was no one. All these were signs of his loneliness.

The other aspect which is thought provoking is the old man’s lust to kill the fish whom he once called his friend and prove that he was a better fishermen the this in though points out societies injustice that nowadays anyone can kill anyone merely for pride and honor and this injustice is pointed out by the old men when he said Sorry to the fish for coming so far for him and in the end getting nothing as the enemies of old men the sharks proved that they were better from the old men and old men was not anymore the king of sea and he has gotten too old for this job now rather they were the one who were ruling the sea now. The end makes the old man realized that probably he has grown too old and now he is not a good fishermen and sharks has killed him though he put a great fight but in the end he got nothing but just a mere journey !!